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all the illusion&lies.
Friday, August 08, 2008
11:33 AM
I have absolutely no idea what happened to me.Illusions. Freaky, I know. But I like illusions, and it happens to me frequently. I see you in my eyes sometimes. I don't dare to move,or blink, for fear of losing the sight. I thought I could let go. But it seems that I couldn't. It has been months already, but I still remember your familiar face, your warm and caring voice. I always get reminded by friends. And I even asked someone once , when you'll be coming back. & it's all because you can't be forgotten by me. --- As usual, you called me. As usual, I lied to you. I couldn't tell you the truth. I didn't want you to scream and shout at me. But of course, I felt guilty. But it has been done, once again, and this will remain a cycle. It'll never end, forever going on. --- At the mention your name, I will suddenly become alert once again. I asked myself before, why it was so. But unfortunately, I still can't find the reason why. I wish I could observe your every move. However, it can't be done. Once a week I'll talk to you. Once a week I'll laugh like a real child. Occasionally, actually only once so far, I'll see you somewhere else. Though you never noticed me, I still felt overjoyed. Every time I spot you, I'll start hyperventilating. It's a natural reaction, although it's not very obvious. I have to stop myself for blurting out embarrassing events about myself, just to make you smile, just to make you laugh. & every time, even if you just smile a little, I'll begin to grin. Natural reaction, once again. --- I just suddenly wanted to type all this out. Because I've been lying so much, I want to state true facts. I will stop lying. I will stop scolding people for no reason. I will stop shouting at people. I will stop disturbing my friends. I will stop poking people, unless needed. I will stop whacking people. I will stop teasing people. I will stop talking to people during class. Because I know the consequences if you're too annoying. Really scary, gosh. But passing notes is still allowed! :D |