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will dreams end up as goals?
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
8:23 PM
PSLE is so near. And I'm suffocating, now. It's too much for me to handle. Especially with you here. I have too many obstacles, far too many. I'm a troubled kid. (As in a kid who cr8 troubles, not feeling troubled.) I can't do things right, everything just goes wrong. I'm born stupid. I have limited time to study. & lastly, I started to revise when it was too late. Only when I realised that while my peers have improved, I've done nothing. I'm still the same. And you, you only know how to see my results and complain. Do you even know how hard it is for me? Do you know how bad I feel? I guess you don't. You only know how to call me names and compare me with the others. Others who scored much much better than me. You only know how to think negatively. Have you ever tried to be optimistic? And me. When pretense becomes reality, it'll turn into a habit. I act like I don't care, I act like PSLE is just another exam. But inside me, it actually frightens me. I know how important it is, I do want to score well. But old habits die hard, isn't it? It seems that I can't change. Acting like this, is just another part of me. But I hate it, it's so .. fake. I guess I'll be a fake forever. I'm already fake, so what's the point of changing? BUTBUTBUT. I can't stop here. My efforts will be wasted. I just want to do one thing right. One thing is enough, for me. But more is fine, of course. Yes, I can't stop. I'm going to show you the other side of me. The side which you haven't seen, yet. I'll see you smile, I'll see you showing off to your friends and relatives. You'll be proud of me, yes you will. This is my dream, my goal. One in a lifetime chance. My first time, and hopefully not the last. You'll see. The side that will shock and surprise you. The side that will hopefully remain after that. The side that I wish to, and hopefully will, be. And you'll be, forever and ever, the one who I want to impress. MY DREAM AND MY GOAL. TO SHOW YOU THE TRUE SIDE OF ME. THE SIDE THAT NO ONE HAS SEEN. AND IT'S ALL FOR YOU, BE HONOURED. I WON'T GIVE UP YET, FOR I STILL HAVE HOPE. <3 |