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Thursday, September 09, 2010 12:55 AM

The story talked about how weaknesses are actually er, demonstrated by you in an amplified manner, and it's too much. Ah hard to translate from Chinese. Mmm. For example, in the story the guy liked to boast, but that's because he's confident, it's just that he's a little too overly confident that's all.

It's a really refreshing way to view at our own weaknesses, I've never thought them this way. I'm always complaining how I have so many flaws and really hate myself for it, so I guess this is like positive thinking to me. Ironically, when I'm trying to think of the flaws I have, strangely I can't name any. I don't know why. So from now on, I will start to notice myself more and note the flaws I have. Change it into a positive trait of mine. Yes I will.

This is also another lesson learnt about perspectives, being optimistic and pessimistic. Somehow everything doesn't necessary have to be the way everyone else thinks it is. There's always 2 sides to every story. I guess that's something everyone has to start to learn how to do, me and especially my class. I know how, some people just refuses to look at the good side of someone and his or her actions.

I know I'm no influential and I'm not a good talker. No matter how hard I tried, I can't talk sense into people. And recently I just started to do what everyone's doing. Oh the power of influence. I guess, it's easier to spread bad peer influence than good peer influence. Rahhh. I don't wanna talk bout this anymore. I'm tired and sick of waiting for things to change. I'm trying to change things myself, but even me is starting to doubt what I'm doing. And then there's the change in the way I think, my actions and my behaviour. I know because other people have started to notice and told me.

This is like a full-blown matter. Everyone knows about it and can feel it. I don't want history to repeat itself. Yet it already has. I don't wish to get some people involved, but I guess there's no other choice. I really, really would like it to be somehow resolved before the end of year. I want happy memories.

I'm lazy and haven't been blogging much. In fact for this whole year, I don't even have at least 30 posts. And less than half of them are actual proper ones that make sense. I shall, blog at least once a week. I think it takes a very big courage to say that. But I really have a lot of things to talk about so I think it's possible. And from now on I will stop saying things like I'm busy or I've got no time. Because no matter how true it may be, I realised that by saying that it's actually giving myself an excuse for not completing all my work.

CCA tomorrow, long dayyyy. But I'm going to treasure the not-so-intensive practices before the intensive period starts. I shall pray that we're going Burger Shack for lunch tomorrow heh.

Alrighttt, it's 2:00AM already. I shall reply texts and go to bed.