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Monday, January 03, 2011
8:52 PM
Tomorrow's the first day of school and I thought it'll be nice to sort out my thoughts a little bit.I'm not quite sure of where I was, but I guess at the moment I have a slight idea of where I'm standing right now. New year, new beginnings. that's what I keep telling myself. So, as the school year starts, I guess it's time for me to forget you too. Or rather, move on and let go. It wasn't until a while ago when I realised that what I thought of, was completely wrong. Fully healed and recovered, what rubbish. I only ran away from reality and didn't want to face the truth. I was a coward. Of course, cruel life always has its way of slapping me in the face to wake me up. So I thought, it's time. Really. I have drowned myself in sadness for far too long. Yes I've got to admit, I don't think I would ever be able to forget you. Not in the past, not now and not in the future. The part of me that still wants to remember you is so much more than the part that wish you never ever exist. But to accept that you are just part of my past, I think i can do that. It's not going to be easy, I'm not sure how long it'll take, but I'll get over you. One day, I definitely will. Someday, the memories haunting me and the nightmares would stop. Thank you, if it weren't for you I wouldn't be the me I am today. I have a thousand reasons to hate you, but I know it wasn't your fault in the first place. I screwed up, sorry. Not that you would ever care. I don't think I'll ever be able to talk about you with other people. But I'm going to be okay. I will. p.s. Gawd I sound like a baby. p.p.s. On a side note, I would appreciate it very much if you would stop rubbing it in my face thanks. |