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Thursday, September 15, 2011
9:13 PM
Yesterday and today were rainy days! I like, my favourite weather. It's so sleepy and there's this really comfortable feeling. I hope it rains again tonight so I'll have a good sleep. Another evidence that my body clock is screwed - I fell asleep at 8 plus last night. So I slept all the way from 8 to 6. A whole 10 hours that's insane. But since I didn't feel sleepy at all during lessons today, I guess it's a good thing. I will uhhhh make a more conscious effort to to sleep more. Forgot to write about this in my previous post! Anyway, I like it when I make people happy. Not in the sense that I live to do that. But it's nice when I do little things and people appreciate it. To be honest, I never had someone who text me who said 'thank you' before. And I think it's really really sweet. Realised how these few days I've been texting different people, not the usual ones. It's a good change! Just feel kind of weird when in the past it's those few colour lights blinking. And now it's just the normal red. Perhaps to others it's a good thing. But I kind of dislike the change in me. An irony really, since it was my own fault. It's just.... I think it's pretty predictable that it will happen one day, sooner or later. I miss the old days when I don't give a shit about it. Now my mind's filled up with all these. And you know what's the worse thing? It's a vicious cycle. You won't know it until you're so deep into it, whatever you're doing becomes more of a subconscious action already. And because it's a vicious cycle, you can't do anything except sink even deeper. Yes, you're worth it. Everything I did. But fuck this. Being in control feels so good. family duty honour. |