|
}} WONDERS
|
|
|
Profile
 Affiliates
Friend
Friend
Friend
Layout credits
Codes by 16thday!Background from here, profile icon from thefadingnight. |
Thursday, December 01, 2011
11:18 PM
"This is the problem with getting attached with someone: When they leave you, you just feel lost."Funny how it feels. For me I mean emotionally attached at least. I'm such a contradict really. It's like I don't really care. Yet I do, too much. The best part which I love is that you know nothing. It's so lovely how ignorant some people can be. Really? You have no clue at all. So, I recently kind of realised that no matter how much I try to change, I'm still that same ol' me no matter. And honestly, nothing much is different. Perhaps some tweaks here and there, but essentially the same. It's like what Nate said in Gossip Girl: "You can't fight against who you are." I think I understand who it means now. Sure, probably now I'm more mature. (Don't laugh!) Less stupid and trusting. Blahblah, the list goes on. Yet I'm still the idiotic annoying lame childish extremely insecure one. What I really want to say that maybe, I can just take a second to pause. Live. Breathe. Take things as it is. I wish I have a Non-Judging Breakfast Club too. I get so sick of whether to tell people things. I hate how fucking interlinked everyone is. It's an effing small world you know. When you're going to have the same schoolmates for another 3 whole years. If any knows your dirt and shit, they just spill it. And there you go, years to endure it. Go you. The worst part is how hypocritical the whole world is. Or more of a two-faced backstabbing bitch. It's quite fun to watch when you're an outsider though to be honest. I guess that's why I do treasure my friends from other schools. You know, those doesn't have a hundred or so mutual friends on Facebook. Because somehow these people don't judge. They listen and they don't go around telling other people. They don't secretly think what a big fat asshole you are or whatever other shit in their heads when they talk. It's not about whether the person relates or not. It's if the people judge. Whether or not the person will judge me - that's also how I see if I can trust a person. Partly. I guess that's why it's so hard to find someone who is trustworthy. Am really angsty now. Just suddenly everything overwhelms and that sudden feeling you get. Frustrated with different things. Shall go reply texts and tidy my room. I swear it's more of a forest than a pig sty now. Though my bro did comment that it's like a land mine, have to step over this and that. Happy December x. |